Bday meal :)

I had such a fun day yesterday! As my family is on vacation in Europe, i spent my bday with my mom (thank god she's here! love my mommy) who took me out for dinner. At the restaurant i was feeling so anxious i asked her to choose my plate for me so i had a burger with fries. It was soo big i ate 1/2 the burger but had all the fries :) it was so good! I could enjoy the meal without feeling guilty.

When we arrived home a cheesecake was waiting for me to blow the candles and as we didnt have small ones we had to use a big one and i asked for my bday wishes.

On saturday i'm celebrating with my friends so i expect to post loads of pics of the party!

Thanks to all of the people who sent me emails for my birthday! Love u all

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Happy Bday to me!

I'm gonna eat a shit load of food cause I DESERVE IT. Today ED doesn't have my attention :)

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TW: I had the burger

Yesterday i had such a great time. I woke up in a good mood even though on sunday i had the shittiest day, had a major angst crisis thinking to myself: i'm huuuge and feel like a whale. This whole episode happened because i've recently gained a lot of weight and i'm all bloated and stuff, so it's been really hard for me to get used to this new body dimension.

Buuuut, on monday my mum went with me to treatment (i always go alone, from monday to friday), and the sun was so bright and it was really hot so my mood got sooo much better. And as i had a free hour between seeing the psychiatrist and my therapist my mum suggested to go to mc donalds. So i got really excited cause it had been over a year since i didnt go. Clearly mc donalds is a major no no for someone suffering from anorexia, but i could control my anxiety and had a big mac! Though i couldnt finish my fries because i was already full. I really enjoyed it :)

It was a big test for me and feel so proud of myself, like, i feel i moved one step forward. I think i'm slowly starting to embrace this new body, a normal body! and not idealizing the 37 kg body i had. Even though my ED thoughts are still present, but not as loud as they used to be.

Hope it stays this way....

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